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Anxiety, The Adventure

The D Word

This post has been a long time coming. I’ve written drafts and drafts in my head for months, but my struggle with a mental illness has been a lifelong issue.

Only in the last 2 years did I seek professional treatment for my depression and anxiety. I can’t tell you how much happier and healthier I am because of it.

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Currently, The Adventure

Status Update

Location: Vail, Colorado

Feeling: Excited ~ Consumed ~ Nervous

Thinking: About the “re-entry” to Sydney in 14 weeks!

Eating: Porridge ~ Red Lion Nachos ~ Salsa & chips ~ bbq pulled pork

Hearing: Banks ~ Angus & Julia Stone ~ Tove Lo ~ Bon Iver ~ Decoder Ring

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The Adventure

6 MONTHS

UPDATE3

6 months. Halfway. 187 days abroad.

What an adventure it has been thus far.

Since my last post here, we have visited Prague, Amsterdam, London, Bath, Bristol, the Cotswolds, Copenhagen, Malmo, Washington DC, Boston, the Hamptons and which brings me to my current location in New York City.

We parted ways with Marlee in Copenhagen which was so hard for all of us. She has become part of our family and we have built a relationship with her that will hopefully last a lifetime. She was more than a nanny to the kids, a friend to James, a sister to me. She has flown home to reunite with her family in Australia but we are still in close contact and the kids ask about her every day.

UPDATE4

We are 3 weeks into our adventure on US soil. Washington DC was utterly beautiful and inspiring. While I am not too interested in US history, it is hard not to be impressed with such monumental and pivotal moments in history that have taken place all over the city.

Boston continued to wow us, with gorgeous tree lined streets, friendly locals, the most supreme Halloween experience of my life, and best of all, our first snowfall of the adventure.

We then drove south to Connecticut and crossed over to Long Island for a family reunion in East Hampton. More about that here.

UPDATE2

This afternoon, the sunshine welcomed us into New York City, as flags hung proudly for Veterans Day and servicemen and women were marching all over the city.

We have a new nanny joining us tomorrow, her name is Carrie and she is a NY native, born and raised here. She will be a live out nanny working 3 days a week.

It has been an absolute blessing to have my in-laws and gran-in-law stay with us for the last week in East Hampton. Our days have been full of love and laughter. Breakfast time is busy with the kids running around, dinner conversations lasted hours and honest words were shared. They are with us for another week in the city and we have many lovely things planned together.

As for my depression and anxiety? I am as well as I can be right now. My anxiety is almost gone. I feel at ease juggling 3 kids onto a flight with 8 pieces of hand luggage, 5 winter coats and a thousand eyes on me. Travel days are easier than you would think.

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Some days, I am numb to many troubling issues that are lingering in my heart, other days I am so busy and out enjoying life that I fall into bed with a smile on my face, and count my blessings a thousand times over.  That’s the sad thing about depression, it’s up and down, hot and cold, on and off, so you really have to enjoy the good days and embrace it all.

I appreciate every person who reads my words here. I’ve been soul searching for so long and I’m finally starting to like the thoughts and feelings in myself. At the end of the day, I’m just a woman, a wife, a mother who took a huge leap 6 months ago. I’ll admit, I’ve looked back a few times, who doesn’t! But I like where I’m heading now. There is new hope on my horizon.

Until next time,

xo

Depression, The Adventure, Uncategorized

4 MONTHS

This week marks 4 months of life on the road. Just over 120 days have passed since we left Sydney and started this journey.

So much has happened since my last post here, about being on the road for 2 months.

Q1

Marlee, our nanny, has been with us for 8 weeks now. The kids absolutely adore her.  James and I have managed to have several date nights, road trips, quiet days down at the beach and in general, much more time together and more one on one time with all of the children. More on Marlee soon.

 

Since leaving Nice, we have visited Venice, Tuscany, Florence, Milan, Zurich, Paris, Split, Primosten, Athens and we are currently residing in Crete in southern Greece. Our journey in Europe is coming to a close soon. On the weekend, we fly to Athens for a few days then onto Prague and Amsterdam.

We will return to the UK for a few weeks before making our last stop in Denmark. After Denmark, we head west to the USA for 6 months of all things ‘Murican!

Q2

Abi and I both celebrated our birthdays in the last few weeks. Abi enjoyed her 6th Birthday in Tuscany while the family spent the day cruising around Crete on a yacht for my birthday. I had to pinch myself several times to ensure I was awake.

 

I loved my time in Italy and Greece the most. The fresh produce has been outstanding, we have eaten the freshest local foods available. We have encountered the friendliest people I have ever met while travelling. Some of our hosts were quiet, country folk who have opened their hearts and their homes to my family.

I’ve been going through quite a rough patch lately and the fear of relapsing into a depressive state is always in the back of my mind. Depression is weird like that, you have a great run of good days / weeks and then a few bad days is all it takes to knock you off your ladder. I barely have enough courage to even write about my mental illness, it’s still so raw and fragile to me.

I feel guilty that I am living the dream, travelling around the world with my family and yet on some days, my mental illness prohibits me from seeing all the beauty that surrounds me. I have been in touch with my therapist and hopefully will organise some sessions over Skype to ensure my mental state remains strong and clear.

Q7

If you have any tips or recommendations for Prague, I’d love to hear them. I have been to Amsterdam before but not for 10 years, so I am sure the city will look very different to me now. Part of me wants to change my plans and stay in Greece until the sunshine has well and truly departed for the summer, but I also know I need to get back into civilisation and prepare myself for living in New York and spending 6 months in the USA.

 

Until then,

xo